There’s a spider in a glass on the floor beside my desk. It’s really big and it’s been there since last night. We try not to kill spiders around here. I have no desire to end his life. But HE’S HUGE and HE’S FAST! I have no idea how to catch him and get him to the window without him crawling on me. Before long, he’ll be dead anyway from my inaction. I need to make a decision one way or the other.
Sometimes in life, I feel faced with decisions similar to this one. I know the right thing to do, but it isn’t always the easy thing to do. I know the right thing to do, but it isn’t always the thing I want to do, even if it’s easy. I don’t always make the right decision. Sometimes I’m selfish, and sometimes I try my best and realize what I thought was good decision, the right decision, was not. I’m ok with that. On the whole, I ruminate too much about the smallest things, and no decision is made without thought. But, I am willing to swallow fear and get on with it. The scariest acts usually end up far less serious than I had imagined.
So, in the middle of writing the paragraph above, I freed the spider. I opened the window, scooped him up, and flung him out. It was thrilling…and not so scary after all.